Dream of the Shore Near Another World

OH HELLO AGAIN, BLOG.

I have blue hair right now, did I mention that?





It used to be pink, for about 8 months. Now it's blue. Soon it may be purple. Or turquoise. Or green. It changes. Just like life. OH HOW PROFOUND.

Despite my title I'm actually listening to Silent Hill music. Who would have guessed? I do want to play Chrono Cross though. After I finish my Chrono Trigger let's play. Did I mention I do Let's Plays? Well I do. Now you know.

Speaking of Silent Hill music, what is up with Esperandote? It's on the soundtrack but not in the game, yet in the game credits it lists it as the ending song. The fuck?

I read about Anne Frank for the first time tonight. On Wikipedia. When I should have been working on my Graphic Narrative projects. I can't believe I never learned about her before. I guess that's what I get for homeschooling in 8th grade when everyone else was learning about the Holocaust. Go me.

I should really get to work on this shit. I mean stuff. Awesome stuff.

G'night.

OH WAIT ONE MORE THING!!

October 17th was my 21st birthday! I had Sushi with my family and my friend Angela and her sister Aimee. It was fun! And I tried a SAKE BOMB...which isn't as exciting as it sounds. It was alcohol, what can I say? Aaaaaaaand I've still never been drunk.

SUP?

So I'm in my 3rd year of college now. Things are pretty coooooooooool. It's 12:49 AM. I should go to bed.

Being in love is weird.

Boo, you whore.

I'm sick. *cough cough* I picked up some germs at the lake. My friend says all this hot weather and no fresh rain has made it the perfect breeding ground for the flu virus. :(

I've just been sitting in bed all day today watching movies and tumblin' on tumblr. Yesterday was horrible. I was vomiting for most of the day...until around 2pm. Now I can finally eat again, and believe me I am SO GRATEFUL, because not being able to eat sucks.

Things I've watched during the course of my sickness so far:

The World of Jim Henson
Ghost in the Shell
Shakespeare in Love
Titanic part 1
Aladdin
The Black Cauldron
Dogma
Star Blazers

I'm kind of bummed out because I was planning to go to an anime convention tomorrow, but now I can't go. :/ Oh well, there's always next year. I plan on cosplaying for reelz next time! :)

I think I might watch Titanic part 2 tonight... that's were all the best stuff happens. ;)

It's 2:53 AM and I'm huuuuuuuuuungry. :(

Also, PONIES.

:DDDDDDDDDDDD

That is all.

Okay, F sleeping schedules.

Doing that whole staying-up-all-night-then-going-to-bed-early thing didn't actually help much. I mean, sure I was able to get up about 4 hours earlier than I normally do, but that's still only 12pm. I WANT TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, GDDMN IT. So from now on, FUCK sleeping schedules; if I want to get up in the morning I'll just get up in the morning. Whatever happens, happens.

Soooooooo I'm reading "A hint of serendipity" right now. God, there are SO many Slenderblogs. But I must read all of them! ALL OF THEM!!

I don't know why but...something about the whole Slender Man mythology/fandom/whatever has been really bothering me lately. I'm really annoyed at it right now for some reason. Maybe I feel like it's started to wear itself out. Maybe it's because it hasn't been scaring me at all lately. Maybe I feel like it's all the same. I guess I feel like it needs something...new. Idk.

Maybe I'm annoyed because I want to be part of it but I don't know how to be. Though at the same time I'm not sure I want to get swept up in some fantastical (and potentially dangerous??) game. Or maybe that's exactly what I want. I don't know.

Either way, I'm going to continue reading all the Slenderblogs I come across. Because...hey, why not.

O_____O

So I've been up all night. It's 7:45am. I'm trying to get my sleeping schedule back to normal. Like, actually sleeping at night and stuff. Because I'm tired of getting up at 3pm. So I'm going to stay up all day today and then go to bed at 9 or 10. I am sooooooooooo looking forward to sleeping. -__- I mean, it's summer so I can pretty much do whatever I want, but staying up all night is still haaaaaarrrrrdddd! Even doing fun stuff is tiring. >.>;

Maybe I'll play some ZELDA. I still need to finish Majora's Mask. ...Y'know, after reading/watching the whole BEN creepypasta that game is a whooole lot creepier. Like, the thought of playing it alone at night freaks me out. XD Oh creepypastas. They change everything.

On another note, how do you get people to actually read your blog?? I thought putting tags and stuff would help, but it hasn't really. I mean, I don't really care how many people read this but...it would be nice to get a comment here or there. IDK. :/ Maybe I just need to start reading more blogs and commenting on them/make friends and stuff. Frieeennndssss. Yes. Right.

Wellllll perhaps the internet shall keep me awake. I wonder if I'll be getting a second wind sometime soon. Hopefully so, then I can use it for cleaning. I have a bunch of papers I need to organize. ;__; Papers annoy me cuz there's never a good place to put them. >.> Yesh indeed.

Oh, I started reading more Slenderblogs. I've been reading The Tutorial on and off for a couple months now, and I just started reading Ichthyological. So yeaaaaahhhhhh. I kinda want to get involved in the Slender community more...I'll have to think about that.

Hokay, bu-bye 4 naow. :3

Shhhhhh this isn't a Slenderblog...I think...

I told myself I was going to get to bed before 12am...but I just want to write about the dream I had last night. Well technically it was this morning, but whatever.

I don't usually dream about the Slender Man, but he was there this time and I thought it was interesting. There were two parts to this dream, and they were both unsettling. He was at the end of the first part. Or actually I guess they were two separate dreams with different plots...anyway I'll recount the one with Slendy first.

So as I said it was towards the end of the dream. I had been on the run from some negative entities--I remember a little girl who was a demon or a ghost or something. She looked similar to Alessa, which isn't surprising I guess. I don't know why these things were after me. They had caught up to me and I decided it was time to face them. I had two or three allies beside me; I don't know who they were but I know there was a guy on my left and a girl on my right. We were...on the outskirts of some sort of circle and there was a swirling vortex in the middle of it. Around us everything was foggy white, as well as the vortex. I'm pretty sure we defeated the demon girl or at least made her retreat.

Then out came Slendy.

He was different...a bit more Lovecraftian I suppose, with dozens of white, fleshy tentacles flailing about. His shape seemed to writhe and change and yet stay the same...it's hard to explain. I could feel myself go insane simply by looking at him. He started coming closer, slowly, hovering over the vortex. That's when the boy at my left told me to cover my eyes; that he would take care of the Slender Man and everything would be okay if I just kept my eyes shut. That was the hardest thing. Keeping your eyes shut is the last thing you want to do when there's a supernatural tentacled monstrosity heading your way. For some reason though, if I looked at Slendy it only made things worse; he got stronger somehow. So I shut my eyes tight, covered them with my hands, and trusted that somehow this boy knew what he was doing.

And that's all I remember.

The other dream also dealt with negative entities. I was in a slum/worn down part of town that has shown up in my dreams several times, along with an old brick apartment building that has made an appearance at least twice now. For some reason my dad and my younger sister and I were exploring this apartment building. I think we were looking for a bathroom or something. We went upstairs. A youngish lady in her late 20s or early 30s lived in an apartment up there. We soon found out that that apartment was severely haunted and that the woman who lived there was possessed. I hated that place; I was so scared. Weird things happened there--lights flickered on and off or just didn't work at all, things moved in the kitchen by themselves...and a strong atmosphere of dark hatred pervaded the walls. The woman was crazy, she had a horrible temper and would yell random things at us. I don't know why we stayed there so long or why we were there in the first place. Eventually I came back with my weird spiritual friend, Devala, so he could tell me exactly why the place was so horrible. Thankfully he was able to exorcise the apartment and the woman who lived there. The woman was finally happy and rational again and she threw a party with streamers and cake and lots of stuffed animals. I still hated being in that apartment though. I guess I hadn't forgiven it for scaring me. ...It was a really weird dream.

So yeah, I watched Vampire Hunter D last night. It wasn't scary but I guess it still caused me to have bad dreams? :P Idk.

I have five garbage bags in my closet, guess what's inside them? >:]

So I just...felt like making a blog post. I'm rearranging/cleaning my room right now. I have WAY too much stuff. I just need to get rid of like, half of it. The problem is deciding WHICH stuff to get rid of. :/

I feel really anxious right now and I don't know why. It could be because of all this goddamn STUFF IN MY ROOM. I feel like it's suffocating me. Or maybe it's just hormones or something, IDK. I just feel like I'm under a lot of pressure, even though I'm not. I'm out for the summer, this movie is done, and I don't have a job. Or maybe it's the fact that I don't have a job that's troubling me. Haha. I really don't know. But writing about it makes me feel a bit better, I guess.

The last night of filming went really well! It was a nice night, though there were a lot of bugs. No Slendy sightings, haha. :P Though it was a bit creepy when I had to search for sticks in the dark by myself with a crappy flashlight. (We needed sticks for a fight scene.) I'm glad shooting is done, but I'm gunna miss everyone. :') We're having our wrap party this week, so that should be fun! :D

Welllllllll that's all for now I guess.

Tag. (You're it.)

So I would probably have a lot more people looking at my blog if I would use tags more often. I sort of didn't even know how to use tags on blogspot until like last year, heh. So I think I might go back and put tags on all my old posts. Yeah. Then everyone will know how awesome I am. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL.

So I just stayed up..."stayed up?" Is that even proper grammar? Anyhoo, I've been up all night. Which isn't too surprising for me these days cuz working on this movie has made me nocturnal. Tonight is our last night of shooting, yaaaay!

So yeah, I was up all night...reading some slenderblogs. You know. The usual. I sort of took a break from all the Slendy stuff for a couple months because I was getting waaaaay too deep into it and it was seriously starting to freak me out. But now I feel like I've distanced myself enough that I can dive back in, haha. Fun fun fuuuuuun!

Speaking of good olde Slender Man, we're shooting our last scene in the woods tonight. That should be fun. For me. After staying up all night soaking up some slendervibes. Yeah. Real...real fun right there. Hahaha, I swear, if Slendy were to mess up our footage I would punch him in the--where his face should be. XD
Y'know the more I think about it...shooting a MOVIE...IN THE WOODS...AT NIGHT...is the perfect Slendy scenario. I mean, that's pretty much just begging for Slender Man to show up. Good thing he's not real, haha. Right? RIGHT??

Weeeeell...yeah I'm gunna sleep now. Wish me luck and stuff.

THIS.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjv3rjw4l_4

I have listened to it sooooooo many times. You should listen to her other songs too; they're amazing. <3

Ha ha ha FUCK!

This week has been horrible.

Just...I haven't felt this bad since high school, and believe me that's saying something. The stupid thing with the poster, and then I was feeling abnormally antisocial--I don't know why. I thought I was feeling better this evening, but then something threw me back into a horrible mood. I just felt REALLY unhappy. I'm still angry about it, but not as much. I guess it'll sort itself out eventually.

Oh god. There are so many things I wanted to get done today that I didn't get done. And we're going out of town tomorrow. Daaaaaaamn iiiiiiit.

I just want...I don't know. I just want things to be awesome. Like; your life sucks? BAM! Now it's awesome! Like that.

Next week will be better. It has to be.

TT_TT

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It's one of those days.

fuck fuck fuck

I'm never taking a job working from home again.

fuck youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Sure I'm a failure, but my poster is probably better. You should just use it.

I better get fucking paid for all the time I spent on it.

God Damn.

Oh yeah, I have a blog. Right.

I was nominated by: http://dancingonthedock.blogspot.com/ to do this thingy!



These are the rules:
1. Winners grab the image above, and put it in your blog.
2. Link back to the person who gave it to you.
3. Tell 10 things about yourself.
4. Award 15 recently discovered bloggers.
5. Contact the bloggers you have awarded to let them know they have won.

Hokay, 10 things about myself.

1. I'm in love with The Legend of Zelda, especially Ocarina of Time. I'm one of those gamers that don't really play many other games except OoT. XD

2. I'm trying to expand my gaming horizon by doing Let's Plays on this channel: http://www.youtube.com/jollyrainbows
SHAMELESS SELF PROMOTION!

3. I currently have bright pink hair. I blame anime.

4. I'm going to be a movie director some day. I love making movies, and I'm currently in charge of props for a feature film that's being shot in my hometown.

5. I never get enough sleep, hence the title of my blog. I hoped that would change once I graduated high school, but now I'm in my second year of college and old habits die hard. :P

6. I've never been drunk or done drugs. Partying and getting wasted just doesn't appeal to me. The best party I've ever been to had no drugs of any sort. It was my friend's birthday party this year. We played with balloons and wore formal wear and ate food and danced. It was amazing in a way that I can't describe. Imagine being surrounded by all of your best friends and feeling totally euphoric.

7. I love creepy things. Silent Hill, abandoned buildings, SLENDERMAN, just to name a few. Also, good creepypastas like Ben.WMV. :P

8. I don't read that many books...idk why. I should probably become more literate. >.> I mean, I read...manga and...magazines...and blogs. Do those count?? :P

9. I used to be totally antisocial but I've gradually grown out of it. Being around large groups of people I don't know can still be pretty stressful, though. But for the post part I have no trouble being a part of society, haha. I have a lot of friends these days too, which is awesome. <3

10. Uuuuuuum. I have two awesome sisters. One is.....twenty....four? Twenty-five? (she's gunna give me crap for not remembering how old she is. XD) And the other one is 17. They're both awesome artists, you should check out their deviantarts: http://fattytunaforever.deviantart.com/ and http://pandorful.deviantart.com/

Aaaaand those are my 10 fact-thingies! I'm too lazy to tag 15 people so I'm just gunna say...if you're reading this and you want to do it tooooo then KNOCK YOURSELF OUT!! :D

I really like creepy things.

Like, A LOT. I still need to read House of Leaves.

Yeah, not gunna elaborate. Maybe later.

This post is pointless....

OR IS IT?! http://knowyourmeme.com/memes/slender-man

Fr-EYE-dai, Fr-EYE-dai, geh-in down on Fr-EYE-dai

Sometimes I can't sleep. It's my own fault, I know. I shouldn't be reading/watching scary things before bed. But I just can't help it. Scary things are awesome.

Now, tonight I'm not still up because I'm scared. I'm just working on a project. The one I wrote about. You know the one.

But sometimes, even when I do manage to fall asleep, it's like I'm still awake. The part of my brain that scans for danger never shuts down. So lie there, stiff and alert, yet asleep. It's kind of weird. I never feel rested in the morning after nights like that.

I used to be terrified of ghosts and ghost stories when I was little. I've grown out of that. I tell myself it's all a matter of how paranoid I want to be. I could be super paranoid of what lurks in the dark, or I could not be, so I choose the latter. Besides, paranoia doesn't help anything.

Of course I still get scared if I'm up late at night watching scary things, but those things seem to effect me less than other people. I've read youtube comments where people are like, "thanks, I left the light on last night and couldn't sleep at all." But I've never reacted that way. For the most part I've trained myself not to be afraid of the scary things I watch, which is kind of ironic I guess. I suppose it has something to do with the fact that I know what I'm watching isn't real, therefore I'm unable to fully immerse myself in it. Idk. I guess I'm just too grounded in reality to get super scared, haha. But that's a good thing.

How 'bout dem bears?

Gotta get those creative juices going with some good olde SILENT HILL MUSIC, YEAH!!

Writing this idea for a horror/mystery movie. It's gunna be aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwweeeeesssoooooome!

Anyway, I don't need to tell you this, but your shoe is untied.

In fact, we should have left the pie in the oven longer, so we put it back in for 10 more minutes.

The sun was bright and I wanted to go on a walk, but I did not.

I thought it was the sound of footsteps, but the darkness simply overpowered my senses.

The words were spread onto the page like butter on toast.

Guess what?

I only post on here when I'm up way to late or I'm procrastinating. Tonight it's the latter. Or...both.

I have to write a 1000 word essay by tomorrow. It's not really such a big deal, I guess. I mean, if I put my mind to it I could probably crank out 1000 words in an hour. The only problem is I still need to do the research and cite the sources, and that takes longer than writing the actual paper...

Maybe I'll just get ready for bed, research for an hour, then write for and hour, and then say "fuck it" and go to bed. Good plan, Sarah. Good. Plan.

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