Sometimes I want to punch myself in the face.

Okay, so sometimes I get into these little depressions where I beat myself up over how I always fail at making friends when I have the best opportunities to make them.

For example, in high school there were these two girls who shared a locker right next to mine. The first time they talked to me one of their friends was complimenting me on my Homestarrunner bag. After I introduced myself in typical Sarah fashion (stuttering and basically failing at saying everything I wanted to say correctly) I pretty much ran away and never said a word to them again because I was so embarrassed and felt like a total social failure.

But the point is this; I didn't need to beat myself up about it so badly. Sure I was awkward at first, but I should have given myself a second chance. Instead of saying to myself, "oh that was horrible I'll never speak to them again," I should have said,"okay it didn't go so well that time, but maybe it'll be better the next time I see them." I should have just said "Hello" to them whenever I saw them instead of ignoring them completely. That's the problem with me; whenever I really REALLY want to be friends with someone I always end up completely ignoring them.

You would think it would be easy to just say HELLO to someone. But I always make it so hard for some reason. I wish I could see these situations as simply as they really are instead of blowing them out of proportion.

So, non-existent readers, I ask you this: how do YOU make friends?

So yeah I finished Nightwalker...

...And it was good! I liked the plot twists in some of the episodes. Very cool.

And now I'm totally fangirling over Shido. HE'S ADORABLE! I want to pet his hair.

I thought it was funny though how in the first few episodes the character designs were different, and then a couple episodes in they decided to change them. What's up with that? Yayoi had red hair in the beginning and then they changed it to purple. And then Shido's hair magically grew. He's cooler with long hair, though. Whatevs.

Cain was a bitch. Oh, silly Cain.

Well, I think I'll watch Violinist of Hamelin next. I watched the first episode on Crunchy roll a year ago before they deleted all their illegal anime, and it seemed pretty cool. I just hope there's not too many episodes. *checks animenewsnetwork* Oh, there's only 25, that's good.

Bye-bye now, friends. Oh wait, here's a picture.