I want to be alive.

I just found this draft of an old blog post.

October 18, 2012.

"I feel so frustrated with my life lately. I want so badly to be young and independent; I want to move out of my parents house, get an apartment, hang out with friends whenever I want, drive around blasting obnoxiously loud music, I want to get in shape and run like a devil through the night, I want to fall in love, I want to start a rock band and spill out all my emotions on stage in front of thousands of people,

I want to be ALIVE. "