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So I've been up all night. It's 7:45am. I'm trying to get my sleeping schedule back to normal. Like, actually sleeping at night and stuff. Because I'm tired of getting up at 3pm. So I'm going to stay up all day today and then go to bed at 9 or 10. I am sooooooooooo looking forward to sleeping. -__- I mean, it's summer so I can pretty much do whatever I want, but staying up all night is still haaaaaarrrrrdddd! Even doing fun stuff is tiring. >.>;

Maybe I'll play some ZELDA. I still need to finish Majora's Mask. ...Y'know, after reading/watching the whole BEN creepypasta that game is a whooole lot creepier. Like, the thought of playing it alone at night freaks me out. XD Oh creepypastas. They change everything.

On another note, how do you get people to actually read your blog?? I thought putting tags and stuff would help, but it hasn't really. I mean, I don't really care how many people read this but...it would be nice to get a comment here or there. IDK. :/ Maybe I just need to start reading more blogs and commenting on them/make friends and stuff. Frieeennndssss. Yes. Right.

Wellllll perhaps the internet shall keep me awake. I wonder if I'll be getting a second wind sometime soon. Hopefully so, then I can use it for cleaning. I have a bunch of papers I need to organize. ;__; Papers annoy me cuz there's never a good place to put them. >.> Yesh indeed.

Oh, I started reading more Slenderblogs. I've been reading The Tutorial on and off for a couple months now, and I just started reading Ichthyological. So yeaaaaahhhhhh. I kinda want to get involved in the Slender community more...I'll have to think about that.

Hokay, bu-bye 4 naow. :3

Shhhhhh this isn't a Slenderblog...I think...

I told myself I was going to get to bed before 12am...but I just want to write about the dream I had last night. Well technically it was this morning, but whatever.

I don't usually dream about the Slender Man, but he was there this time and I thought it was interesting. There were two parts to this dream, and they were both unsettling. He was at the end of the first part. Or actually I guess they were two separate dreams with different plots...anyway I'll recount the one with Slendy first.

So as I said it was towards the end of the dream. I had been on the run from some negative entities--I remember a little girl who was a demon or a ghost or something. She looked similar to Alessa, which isn't surprising I guess. I don't know why these things were after me. They had caught up to me and I decided it was time to face them. I had two or three allies beside me; I don't know who they were but I know there was a guy on my left and a girl on my right. We were...on the outskirts of some sort of circle and there was a swirling vortex in the middle of it. Around us everything was foggy white, as well as the vortex. I'm pretty sure we defeated the demon girl or at least made her retreat.

Then out came Slendy.

He was different...a bit more Lovecraftian I suppose, with dozens of white, fleshy tentacles flailing about. His shape seemed to writhe and change and yet stay the same...it's hard to explain. I could feel myself go insane simply by looking at him. He started coming closer, slowly, hovering over the vortex. That's when the boy at my left told me to cover my eyes; that he would take care of the Slender Man and everything would be okay if I just kept my eyes shut. That was the hardest thing. Keeping your eyes shut is the last thing you want to do when there's a supernatural tentacled monstrosity heading your way. For some reason though, if I looked at Slendy it only made things worse; he got stronger somehow. So I shut my eyes tight, covered them with my hands, and trusted that somehow this boy knew what he was doing.

And that's all I remember.

The other dream also dealt with negative entities. I was in a slum/worn down part of town that has shown up in my dreams several times, along with an old brick apartment building that has made an appearance at least twice now. For some reason my dad and my younger sister and I were exploring this apartment building. I think we were looking for a bathroom or something. We went upstairs. A youngish lady in her late 20s or early 30s lived in an apartment up there. We soon found out that that apartment was severely haunted and that the woman who lived there was possessed. I hated that place; I was so scared. Weird things happened there--lights flickered on and off or just didn't work at all, things moved in the kitchen by themselves...and a strong atmosphere of dark hatred pervaded the walls. The woman was crazy, she had a horrible temper and would yell random things at us. I don't know why we stayed there so long or why we were there in the first place. Eventually I came back with my weird spiritual friend, Devala, so he could tell me exactly why the place was so horrible. Thankfully he was able to exorcise the apartment and the woman who lived there. The woman was finally happy and rational again and she threw a party with streamers and cake and lots of stuffed animals. I still hated being in that apartment though. I guess I hadn't forgiven it for scaring me. ...It was a really weird dream.

So yeah, I watched Vampire Hunter D last night. It wasn't scary but I guess it still caused me to have bad dreams? :P Idk.

I have five garbage bags in my closet, guess what's inside them? >:]

So I just...felt like making a blog post. I'm rearranging/cleaning my room right now. I have WAY too much stuff. I just need to get rid of like, half of it. The problem is deciding WHICH stuff to get rid of. :/

I feel really anxious right now and I don't know why. It could be because of all this goddamn STUFF IN MY ROOM. I feel like it's suffocating me. Or maybe it's just hormones or something, IDK. I just feel like I'm under a lot of pressure, even though I'm not. I'm out for the summer, this movie is done, and I don't have a job. Or maybe it's the fact that I don't have a job that's troubling me. Haha. I really don't know. But writing about it makes me feel a bit better, I guess.

The last night of filming went really well! It was a nice night, though there were a lot of bugs. No Slendy sightings, haha. :P Though it was a bit creepy when I had to search for sticks in the dark by myself with a crappy flashlight. (We needed sticks for a fight scene.) I'm glad shooting is done, but I'm gunna miss everyone. :') We're having our wrap party this week, so that should be fun! :D

Welllllllll that's all for now I guess.

Tag. (You're it.)

So I would probably have a lot more people looking at my blog if I would use tags more often. I sort of didn't even know how to use tags on blogspot until like last year, heh. So I think I might go back and put tags on all my old posts. Yeah. Then everyone will know how awesome I am. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL.

So I just stayed up..."stayed up?" Is that even proper grammar? Anyhoo, I've been up all night. Which isn't too surprising for me these days cuz working on this movie has made me nocturnal. Tonight is our last night of shooting, yaaaay!

So yeah, I was up all night...reading some slenderblogs. You know. The usual. I sort of took a break from all the Slendy stuff for a couple months because I was getting waaaaay too deep into it and it was seriously starting to freak me out. But now I feel like I've distanced myself enough that I can dive back in, haha. Fun fun fuuuuuun!

Speaking of good olde Slender Man, we're shooting our last scene in the woods tonight. That should be fun. For me. After staying up all night soaking up some slendervibes. Yeah. Real...real fun right there. Hahaha, I swear, if Slendy were to mess up our footage I would punch him in the--where his face should be. XD
Y'know the more I think about it...shooting a MOVIE...IN THE WOODS...AT NIGHT...is the perfect Slendy scenario. I mean, that's pretty much just begging for Slender Man to show up. Good thing he's not real, haha. Right? RIGHT??

Weeeeell...yeah I'm gunna sleep now. Wish me luck and stuff.

THIS.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjv3rjw4l_4

I have listened to it sooooooo many times. You should listen to her other songs too; they're amazing. <3

Ha ha ha FUCK!

This week has been horrible.

Just...I haven't felt this bad since high school, and believe me that's saying something. The stupid thing with the poster, and then I was feeling abnormally antisocial--I don't know why. I thought I was feeling better this evening, but then something threw me back into a horrible mood. I just felt REALLY unhappy. I'm still angry about it, but not as much. I guess it'll sort itself out eventually.

Oh god. There are so many things I wanted to get done today that I didn't get done. And we're going out of town tomorrow. Daaaaaaamn iiiiiiit.

I just want...I don't know. I just want things to be awesome. Like; your life sucks? BAM! Now it's awesome! Like that.

Next week will be better. It has to be.

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It's one of those days.

fuck fuck fuck

I'm never taking a job working from home again.

fuck youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Sure I'm a failure, but my poster is probably better. You should just use it.

I better get fucking paid for all the time I spent on it.

God Damn.