2012

I feel like 2012 is the most "now" that now has ever been. Everyone's been talking about it for so long, and now it's here, and it feels like it's always been here. It's a hard feeling to explain, but somehow I feel like the past, the present and the future are all about to line up and become one.

I guess that's what some people say time is; that there is no past or future; that there is only now, and now has always been.

Look, I'm so enlightened.

Speaking of Slenderblogs, I'm reading Seeking Truth. DAMN is it well written. I can imagine it as a movie, or an awesome X-Files type of tv series. Yeah, probably a tv series. So this is what I've been missing, eh? Everyone talks about Seeking Truth but I didn't start reading it until like last week. I'm not even halfway through yet and it is so freaking awesome. See, I want to be able to contribute something like that to the Slenderman mythos.

Ah, Slenderman. <3

And with that, goodnight.

Oh P.S. my hair is pink again.

Okay, F sleeping schedules.

Doing that whole staying-up-all-night-then-going-to-bed-early thing didn't actually help much. I mean, sure I was able to get up about 4 hours earlier than I normally do, but that's still only 12pm. I WANT TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, GDDMN IT. So from now on, FUCK sleeping schedules; if I want to get up in the morning I'll just get up in the morning. Whatever happens, happens.

Soooooooo I'm reading "A hint of serendipity" right now. God, there are SO many Slenderblogs. But I must read all of them! ALL OF THEM!!

I don't know why but...something about the whole Slender Man mythology/fandom/whatever has been really bothering me lately. I'm really annoyed at it right now for some reason. Maybe I feel like it's started to wear itself out. Maybe it's because it hasn't been scaring me at all lately. Maybe I feel like it's all the same. I guess I feel like it needs something...new. Idk.

Maybe I'm annoyed because I want to be part of it but I don't know how to be. Though at the same time I'm not sure I want to get swept up in some fantastical (and potentially dangerous??) game. Or maybe that's exactly what I want. I don't know.

Either way, I'm going to continue reading all the Slenderblogs I come across. Because...hey, why not.

O_____O

So I've been up all night. It's 7:45am. I'm trying to get my sleeping schedule back to normal. Like, actually sleeping at night and stuff. Because I'm tired of getting up at 3pm. So I'm going to stay up all day today and then go to bed at 9 or 10. I am sooooooooooo looking forward to sleeping. -__- I mean, it's summer so I can pretty much do whatever I want, but staying up all night is still haaaaaarrrrrdddd! Even doing fun stuff is tiring. >.>;

Maybe I'll play some ZELDA. I still need to finish Majora's Mask. ...Y'know, after reading/watching the whole BEN creepypasta that game is a whooole lot creepier. Like, the thought of playing it alone at night freaks me out. XD Oh creepypastas. They change everything.

On another note, how do you get people to actually read your blog?? I thought putting tags and stuff would help, but it hasn't really. I mean, I don't really care how many people read this but...it would be nice to get a comment here or there. IDK. :/ Maybe I just need to start reading more blogs and commenting on them/make friends and stuff. Frieeennndssss. Yes. Right.

Wellllll perhaps the internet shall keep me awake. I wonder if I'll be getting a second wind sometime soon. Hopefully so, then I can use it for cleaning. I have a bunch of papers I need to organize. ;__; Papers annoy me cuz there's never a good place to put them. >.> Yesh indeed.

Oh, I started reading more Slenderblogs. I've been reading The Tutorial on and off for a couple months now, and I just started reading Ichthyological. So yeaaaaahhhhhh. I kinda want to get involved in the Slender community more...I'll have to think about that.

Hokay, bu-bye 4 naow. :3

Shhhhhh this isn't a Slenderblog...I think...

I told myself I was going to get to bed before 12am...but I just want to write about the dream I had last night. Well technically it was this morning, but whatever.

I don't usually dream about the Slender Man, but he was there this time and I thought it was interesting. There were two parts to this dream, and they were both unsettling. He was at the end of the first part. Or actually I guess they were two separate dreams with different plots...anyway I'll recount the one with Slendy first.

So as I said it was towards the end of the dream. I had been on the run from some negative entities--I remember a little girl who was a demon or a ghost or something. She looked similar to Alessa, which isn't surprising I guess. I don't know why these things were after me. They had caught up to me and I decided it was time to face them. I had two or three allies beside me; I don't know who they were but I know there was a guy on my left and a girl on my right. We were...on the outskirts of some sort of circle and there was a swirling vortex in the middle of it. Around us everything was foggy white, as well as the vortex. I'm pretty sure we defeated the demon girl or at least made her retreat.

Then out came Slendy.

He was different...a bit more Lovecraftian I suppose, with dozens of white, fleshy tentacles flailing about. His shape seemed to writhe and change and yet stay the same...it's hard to explain. I could feel myself go insane simply by looking at him. He started coming closer, slowly, hovering over the vortex. That's when the boy at my left told me to cover my eyes; that he would take care of the Slender Man and everything would be okay if I just kept my eyes shut. That was the hardest thing. Keeping your eyes shut is the last thing you want to do when there's a supernatural tentacled monstrosity heading your way. For some reason though, if I looked at Slendy it only made things worse; he got stronger somehow. So I shut my eyes tight, covered them with my hands, and trusted that somehow this boy knew what he was doing.

And that's all I remember.

The other dream also dealt with negative entities. I was in a slum/worn down part of town that has shown up in my dreams several times, along with an old brick apartment building that has made an appearance at least twice now. For some reason my dad and my younger sister and I were exploring this apartment building. I think we were looking for a bathroom or something. We went upstairs. A youngish lady in her late 20s or early 30s lived in an apartment up there. We soon found out that that apartment was severely haunted and that the woman who lived there was possessed. I hated that place; I was so scared. Weird things happened there--lights flickered on and off or just didn't work at all, things moved in the kitchen by themselves...and a strong atmosphere of dark hatred pervaded the walls. The woman was crazy, she had a horrible temper and would yell random things at us. I don't know why we stayed there so long or why we were there in the first place. Eventually I came back with my weird spiritual friend, Devala, so he could tell me exactly why the place was so horrible. Thankfully he was able to exorcise the apartment and the woman who lived there. The woman was finally happy and rational again and she threw a party with streamers and cake and lots of stuffed animals. I still hated being in that apartment though. I guess I hadn't forgiven it for scaring me. ...It was a really weird dream.

So yeah, I watched Vampire Hunter D last night. It wasn't scary but I guess it still caused me to have bad dreams? :P Idk.

Tag. (You're it.)

So I would probably have a lot more people looking at my blog if I would use tags more often. I sort of didn't even know how to use tags on blogspot until like last year, heh. So I think I might go back and put tags on all my old posts. Yeah. Then everyone will know how awesome I am. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL.

So I just stayed up..."stayed up?" Is that even proper grammar? Anyhoo, I've been up all night. Which isn't too surprising for me these days cuz working on this movie has made me nocturnal. Tonight is our last night of shooting, yaaaay!

So yeah, I was up all night...reading some slenderblogs. You know. The usual. I sort of took a break from all the Slendy stuff for a couple months because I was getting waaaaay too deep into it and it was seriously starting to freak me out. But now I feel like I've distanced myself enough that I can dive back in, haha. Fun fun fuuuuuun!

Speaking of good olde Slender Man, we're shooting our last scene in the woods tonight. That should be fun. For me. After staying up all night soaking up some slendervibes. Yeah. Real...real fun right there. Hahaha, I swear, if Slendy were to mess up our footage I would punch him in the--where his face should be. XD
Y'know the more I think about it...shooting a MOVIE...IN THE WOODS...AT NIGHT...is the perfect Slendy scenario. I mean, that's pretty much just begging for Slender Man to show up. Good thing he's not real, haha. Right? RIGHT??

Weeeeell...yeah I'm gunna sleep now. Wish me luck and stuff.