Sometimes I want to punch myself in the face.

Okay, so sometimes I get into these little depressions where I beat myself up over how I always fail at making friends when I have the best opportunities to make them.

For example, in high school there were these two girls who shared a locker right next to mine. The first time they talked to me one of their friends was complimenting me on my Homestarrunner bag. After I introduced myself in typical Sarah fashion (stuttering and basically failing at saying everything I wanted to say correctly) I pretty much ran away and never said a word to them again because I was so embarrassed and felt like a total social failure.

But the point is this; I didn't need to beat myself up about it so badly. Sure I was awkward at first, but I should have given myself a second chance. Instead of saying to myself, "oh that was horrible I'll never speak to them again," I should have said,"okay it didn't go so well that time, but maybe it'll be better the next time I see them." I should have just said "Hello" to them whenever I saw them instead of ignoring them completely. That's the problem with me; whenever I really REALLY want to be friends with someone I always end up completely ignoring them.

You would think it would be easy to just say HELLO to someone. But I always make it so hard for some reason. I wish I could see these situations as simply as they really are instead of blowing them out of proportion.

So, non-existent readers, I ask you this: how do YOU make friends?

So yeah I finished Nightwalker...

...And it was good! I liked the plot twists in some of the episodes. Very cool.

And now I'm totally fangirling over Shido. HE'S ADORABLE! I want to pet his hair.

I thought it was funny though how in the first few episodes the character designs were different, and then a couple episodes in they decided to change them. What's up with that? Yayoi had red hair in the beginning and then they changed it to purple. And then Shido's hair magically grew. He's cooler with long hair, though. Whatevs.

Cain was a bitch. Oh, silly Cain.

Well, I think I'll watch Violinist of Hamelin next. I watched the first episode on Crunchy roll a year ago before they deleted all their illegal anime, and it seemed pretty cool. I just hope there's not too many episodes. *checks animenewsnetwork* Oh, there's only 25, that's good.

Bye-bye now, friends. Oh wait, here's a picture.

Moonlight swimming alone in a dark sea

I've been listening to Gessekai by Buck-Tick on repeat for like two hours. Now I really want to watch Nightwalker. I haven't actually seen an episode yet. I think my sister says it's good. I didn't know this song was the opening theme for that anime until I looked up the lyrics and it had an embedded video of the opening. Detectives, vampires, demons...sounds good. And it's only 12 episodes long! I think I shall aquaint myself with it rather soon...

I should probably get to work on stuff, but now it's kind of bed time. And I want to stay up and do other stuff. Blah.

Here's a picture to make my non-existant readers happy. FUCK, why is it at the top again?!?

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OKAY, so I figured it's been so long since I made a new post that I might as well make another one two minutes after the last one.

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I JUST FELT LIKE TROLLING. DON'T JUDGE ME.

New Post. Why Not?

I just read all my old posts, and I just thought I should mention that there was a girl in the grade below me in high school whose name was Heather Mason. I wonder if she knew she was from a survival horror game. She didn't look anything like Heather from SH3, though. But that would have been awesome.

Yeah, that's all, I guess.

Oh, here's a picture. ...FUCK! WHY DID IT PUT IT AT THE TOP?!

P.S. I've had Radar by Britney Spears stuck in my head all day. Not that that's really a bad thing. It's a catchy song.

Hullo thar mai frend

This is one of the first pictures I ever took on PhotoBooth. It's pretty scary. And wrong.

If you cut me I suppose I would bleed the colors of the evening stars

WOW. I was going to post this blog in the summer when I first started listening to Owl City; hence the title. I saved the draft and then completely forgot about it and now just discovered it.

SO I'M FINISHING IT NOW. (1/25/10)

Um. I spent like two hours tonight watching Lady Gaga interviews on UTOOB. And now I'm listening to Poker Face. What is the world coming to?

I'm not a fan of Lady Gaga, but she's just so...interesting? IDK, why did I spend so much time watching interviews of her? Hmmm. Well, I can say that even though she's kinda crazy I admire that about her. Crazy-ness. It's refreshing.

WHY DO I ALWAYS WASTE MY TIME ON THE INTERNETS???!! I should have been doing other things. 8I