In my mind, I slit my wrists to cull the frustration.

Some random song lyrics I just made up:

You love me but we're not,
not talking

Yeah you love me but we're not,
not, not, not

I like you but just not like that
boy

I like you but it's not that
easy

Chorus:
Let's forget our past I wanna
go back to the sta-art

I wanna meet you over the internet
again

I wanna hide my head on my shoulders and you
won't think that I'm awesome

I wanna meet you again and we'll be friends
real friends
and not this forced crap

-END RANDOM LYRICS-

HERPADERP

I really shouldn't jump to conclusions about certain situations. It just makes things awkward. >.>

I think we all tend to unconsciously make up stories in our head about situations in our lives and then we realize that we had it all wrong; that it was indeed just a story. But sometimes it's so hard to stop ourselves from doing that.

So this thing happened
and then this other thing happened
and I can't really explain it on the internet
even though no one reads this

Let's just say; I'm stuck in kind of an awkward situation with some people who's relationship with me shall go unnamed.

I'm sure you understand?

WHAT U DO??????

Well hellooooo there, 3:24am! How are you doing? Lovely? Well that's just splended.

I'm here to talk to you today about some things.

Um...........

First of all I shouldn't stay up this late.

And....really that's all I have the patience to write right now.

I realize why no one reads my blog now! It's because it sucks!

I LOVE YOU!!

2012

I feel like 2012 is the most "now" that now has ever been. Everyone's been talking about it for so long, and now it's here, and it feels like it's always been here. It's a hard feeling to explain, but somehow I feel like the past, the present and the future are all about to line up and become one.

I guess that's what some people say time is; that there is no past or future; that there is only now, and now has always been.

Look, I'm so enlightened.

Speaking of Slenderblogs, I'm reading Seeking Truth. DAMN is it well written. I can imagine it as a movie, or an awesome X-Files type of tv series. Yeah, probably a tv series. So this is what I've been missing, eh? Everyone talks about Seeking Truth but I didn't start reading it until like last week. I'm not even halfway through yet and it is so freaking awesome. See, I want to be able to contribute something like that to the Slenderman mythos.

Ah, Slenderman. <3

And with that, goodnight.

Oh P.S. my hair is pink again.

Dream of the Shore Near Another World

OH HELLO AGAIN, BLOG.

I have blue hair right now, did I mention that?





It used to be pink, for about 8 months. Now it's blue. Soon it may be purple. Or turquoise. Or green. It changes. Just like life. OH HOW PROFOUND.

Despite my title I'm actually listening to Silent Hill music. Who would have guessed? I do want to play Chrono Cross though. After I finish my Chrono Trigger let's play. Did I mention I do Let's Plays? Well I do. Now you know.

Speaking of Silent Hill music, what is up with Esperandote? It's on the soundtrack but not in the game, yet in the game credits it lists it as the ending song. The fuck?

I read about Anne Frank for the first time tonight. On Wikipedia. When I should have been working on my Graphic Narrative projects. I can't believe I never learned about her before. I guess that's what I get for homeschooling in 8th grade when everyone else was learning about the Holocaust. Go me.

I should really get to work on this shit. I mean stuff. Awesome stuff.

G'night.

OH WAIT ONE MORE THING!!

October 17th was my 21st birthday! I had Sushi with my family and my friend Angela and her sister Aimee. It was fun! And I tried a SAKE BOMB...which isn't as exciting as it sounds. It was alcohol, what can I say? Aaaaaaaand I've still never been drunk.

SUP?

So I'm in my 3rd year of college now. Things are pretty coooooooooool. It's 12:49 AM. I should go to bed.

Being in love is weird.

Boo, you whore.

I'm sick. *cough cough* I picked up some germs at the lake. My friend says all this hot weather and no fresh rain has made it the perfect breeding ground for the flu virus. :(

I've just been sitting in bed all day today watching movies and tumblin' on tumblr. Yesterday was horrible. I was vomiting for most of the day...until around 2pm. Now I can finally eat again, and believe me I am SO GRATEFUL, because not being able to eat sucks.

Things I've watched during the course of my sickness so far:

The World of Jim Henson
Ghost in the Shell
Shakespeare in Love
Titanic part 1
Aladdin
The Black Cauldron
Dogma
Star Blazers

I'm kind of bummed out because I was planning to go to an anime convention tomorrow, but now I can't go. :/ Oh well, there's always next year. I plan on cosplaying for reelz next time! :)

I think I might watch Titanic part 2 tonight... that's were all the best stuff happens. ;)